lyrics
some words I wrote, some things I felt
lover body mother
What the hell was that then?
You said “one more kiss”
6 times before I could get out of the passenger seat
And then you didn’t call
After touching every inch of me
So who the hell was I then?
To think “one more round,
All in, still fight in the skin of our teeth”
I’m patient, and you’re lost
I’ve gone from lover, to body, to mother to you don’t want me
Lover to body to mother, lover to body
It’s a head rush from hot straight to cold
And I’m getting dizzy playing
Cool just to feel some control
You can’t resist me so I’m
Free with a life on parole
And you’re thinking
"Lover, body, mother"
Now you want me
What the hell is this then?
Love me on a whim, asking for no strings
Boy there’s no such thing as a happy-ending-shrink
Or playing house then playing friends
I’ve been a
Lover, a body, a mother,
Stoic to strangle the suffer
Oh
I’ll shoot the horse at the end of the summer
You’ll call your ex tryna fuck her
I’ll throw you straight to the vultures
You’ll go to grayscale from colour and think
LOVER, BODY, MOTHER and you’ll want me
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It’s a head rush from hot straight to cold
And I’m getting dizzy playing
Cool just to feel some control
You can’t resist me so I’m
Free with a life on parole
And you’re thinking
"Lover, body, mother"
Now you want me
Now you want me
Don’t you want me?
Don’t you want me?
I know you want me​
It’s a head rush from hot straight to cold
And I’m getting dizzy (dizzy) playing
Cool just to feel some control
You can’t resist me (ooh) so I’m
Free with a life on parole
And you’re thinking
"Lover, body, mother"
Now you want me
Now you want me
Don’t you want me
(Who the hell was I, who the hell was I?)
Don’t you want me?
I know you want me
(I’ll shoot the horse, I’ll shoot the horse now)
Now you want me
Don’t you want me
(To the vultures, to the vultures)
Don’t you want me?
I know you want me
(Who the hell was I, who the hell was I?)
golden boy
I’ll bet im talk of the town
I’m your dinner table villain
Led the heartless harlot coalition
Not there, still around
I’ll bet your father’s fuckin proud
You finally took on all his vices
You look alike when you suppress a crisis
He knows you more than I do now
I took on half the blame
And you don’t feel one ounce of shame
They’ll never get the whole damn story
Golden boy gets all the glory now now now
Hold you to their holy bible
Well you cheated, Jesus, some disciple
Of course I know more than they do now
I’ll bet those bed bugs really bite
I know they do my bidding
But it’s not guilt, it’s just a body missing
Two gone, snake eyes
I’ll bet your mother’s so content
And your freaky christian cousins
With their Kool-Aid sponsored christ concussions
They all think you’re born again
I took on half the blame
And you don’t feel one ounce of shame
They’ll never get the whole damn story
Golden boy gets all the glory now now now
Hold you to their holy bible
Well you cheated, Jesus, some disciple
Of course I know more than they do now
Coward, cheater, burning Cedars
Take a bow, and smoke my ether
Coward, cheater, faithless preacher
Take a bow, you conned a dreamer x2
They’ll never get the whole damn story
Golden boy gets all the glory now now now
Hold you to their holy bible
Well you cheated, Jesus, some disciple
Of course I know more than they do now
I know more than they do, I know more than they do
I know more, I know more
God only knows that I know more than they do now
aurora
He’s catching every detail
Your every muscle’s waving white
He kisses morning breath
And when you leave he says he cries like a baby
​
And you’re questioning the balance
Feeling close to callous
He’s aurora borealis
Do you hold a flame to all his light ?
Aurora aurora aurora, aurora borealis
​
You’re quiet with affection
He’s been raised to love so loud
He hates your villains for you
Then hides them like a cloud with his shelter
​
And you’re questioning the balance
Feeling close to callous
He’s aurora borealis
Do you hold a flame to all his light ?
Aurora aurora aurora, aurora borealis
​
You’ve never cried because you missed him
Or fought a dragon in his name
And you’re giving him your all but
His good heart puts you to shame oh it’s
hopeless
Do you hold a flame to all his light ?
​
And you’re questioning the balance
Feeling close to callous
He’s aurora borealis
Do you hold a flame to all his light ?
Aurora aurora aurora, aurora borealis
down
I smell it on your breath with that luxe cologne
Lipstick on your collar but mum stayed home
Biting my tongue and watching my mouth
Now we’re helping girl guides and hockey teams
One knock we’ll give em glass to cover gasoline
Social if you say still when no one’s around
You pop the cork and bring the bottle down down down down down
You learned it in the theatres, caught the matinee
Dad went out on Friday, fights were Saturdays
Biting your tongue and watching your mouth
Took all of his blues, mauves and violets
A cigarette burned child nihilist
Watched him decompress finding peace on the couch
Popping off tabs and crushing cans down down down down down
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Down, down, down, down, down, down
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My wounds always sting when I use alcohol
Sometimes I flirt with the burning, call it protocol
My blood biding time to wash me right out
I’m scared of the recliner and the mini fridge
Getting a little too brave off liquid courage
When they pour another round
I’ll be quiet, but I’ll count
When they slide me back my glass
Try my best to put it down
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I see your image in my head and I know I’ll put it down down down down down